FATIN MUHIDDIN
Friday, December 30, 2011, 02:27
Staying strong
I know i should be studying but i cant help to express what is on my mind right now.. For some reason i do feel like i am living in a denial. Its not that i am being a coward or anything but what if that is the only choice that i have ? Ignoring and let all those feelings slip by me in order for me to get going and get stronger to make through the day.. ? It aint easy. Deep inside i know i am not that strong but i am trying and i am not giving up. There are some point in life where i just feel like sobbing and crying so hard but then what is the point? What is the point of feeling sad over things? When i know i have so many other important things in life that i need to focus on , when i know i still have all those precious people in my life that appreciate me more than anyone else. For now , i just wanna live on this road for quite some time.. I've been through a lot and i am just tired. My mind cant seem to digest about what love is anymore and i really feel like this is a really good time for me to just take a break from everything. Four years living in that world and it gave me nothing but just a heartache. Remembering what my english lecturer said on his last day , never be afraid of making a mistake. You'll never learn in life if there are no mistakes to be learnt. So , i'll cherish every little tiny mistakes that i've made this year and make it as a very valuable lessons for me in life. And for some reason i do feel a lot calmer and happier now. To spend some quality time with family and friends who has always been there through thick and thin. To struggle in studies in order to have a better future. That is what i am really aiming right now. I am lovin every single bit of my life no matter how hard it is :)New year is coming very soon. Before anything i just wanna say sorry to whoever that stumble upon this humble blog of mine , sorry for any of my wrong doings to any of you. Let us start 2012 with a lot of joy and good hopes! May 2012 be a very good year to each and everyone of us. Cheers to the new life and the new journey ahead :)
xx
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